It will be 5 years that my son has been home from S. Korea at the end of March. I can't believe 5 years has flown by so fast! In the past 5 years I have been so focused on keeping my son healthy, that I have neglected myself. It's hard to admit, but I have gained quite a bit of weight again.
When we set out on our journey to adoption, we were required to fall within "healthy weight" guidelines as per the adoption laws and requirements of Korea. At the time of application -- my husband and I did not. So in order to take referral of a baby, we had to get in shape. (Read one of the early posts about this HERE). I was highly motivated by this. I had signs around my house that I printed and drew that said "Fat = No Baby".
Heheh. It was harsh but was motivating. I ate well, worked out every day (sometimes 2x a day) and finally met the goal and accepted our referral the Monday of Thanksgiving week, 2008!! Life certainly got a bit more crazy....We arrived home with our precious son 3/31/2009! Since then life has moved at lightning speed. We found out our son had some issues and I embarked on a mission to learn everything I could about how to help him, keep him healthy, and work with his challenges. Meanwhile, my focus shifted...and the weight started creeping back on. We moved from IL to Indiana, hubby changed jobs, our son was diagnosed with ADHD and SPD and was attending Occupational Therapy, changing schools. I started working from home, and later changed jobs. Life was stressful! He started Kindergarten this past fall, and I've been working closely with school staff and special services to get him an IEP and accommodations at school to help him be successful (which, by the way, has been working out great! We have an awesome school system, wonderful compassionate team of teachers, resource leaders, Nurse Practitioner, and he's thriving!!). But....mom...not as much, heheheh. I quit working. With all of the days off school, no family close by (still) - it makes more sense for me to be home, and available to take care of him whenever needed.
It's taken me awhile to get my head together...but I'm finally there. About 10 days ago, I embarked on a journey to get myself healthier and in shape. I have always tried to make healthy food choices, but let my sweet & carb cravings take over. I used food to deal with stress, a little too often! I've been working out daily, eating sensible portions, more whole foods, less sugar and carbs, and have lost 7 pounds already!
I'm trying to vary my workouts, because this seemed to work in the past. Granted I'm 5 years older, and in peri-menopause (yes I'm an older, late-in life mama), so it will be slower....but mixing it up with exercise seems to give my body the jolt it needs. So I am rotating - Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds 3 miles (working back up to 5 miles) , Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred, (Have the DVD of Jillian Michaels Extreme Shed & Shred to work up to), my own circuit of hand weights, yoga, crunches & squats, Wii Fit Plus, Wii EA Active 2, and as soon as this horrid winter is over - I will be walking outside, and swimming when we open our pool. I dusted off my FitBit Ultra, and bought some great new Skechers Air Inspire shoes.
Once I reach the 30 day mark, I want to try to start running on my treadmill again. Being large chested, right now it's still a bit too difficult for me. I feel like once I get a few pounds off, and my body starts to get stronger and building stamina, I will be able to start intensifying my workouts like I used to. I miss those "Last Chance Workout" days (like Biggest Loser) that I did once a week - where I worked out 2+ hours, sometimes 2x a day, and really blasted it. I hope in the near future start to do something more intense like Insanity or Turbo Fire. But I'm working up to it. One day, one step at a time.
--- Side note....we have recently realized we need to slim down our budget too. We overspent in January and we're on spending lock down. Therefore a pricey gym membership, Classes or costly workout DVD set like Insanity is out of the question. Right now I'm trimming the fat everywhere - and have to do this on a budget!
I can't bring myself to divulge my weight, or how much I gained/want to lose....it's just too private; I'm too ashamed I guess. But I will say that I have a ways to go, and ultimately I would like to get back to where I was when we left for Korea....and at that point I will still have 30 lbs to be at my Ultimate skinny, happy, healthy, goal weight. But I'm not thinking that far out right now. Just one day, one week at a time - setting small goals. I met the goal I had for the last 10 days. YAY ME! Next Monday, I hope to have lost 3 more pounds.
Writing this out is cathartic. It's therapy. I need it. I am using MyFitnessPal on my iPhone and it is helping me track everything and be more mindful. Hubby is doing it along with me and he's lost 5 pounds so far too. It helps to have a buddy!
I rarely get comments on my blog anymore. I know Facebook and Instagram have killed many blogs. People want instant gratification and don't want to read or write blogs much anymore. Oh well. I am doing this for me. If I get some feedback, some support, comments - that's great and I will really appreciate it. But I'm not going to let me down. This is my space to document my life....
Thanks for listening.
Did Level 1 of 30 Day Shred today...
Now off to clean the house!